Well... my wife and I have had a talk. One of those serious talks. Trying to get her to understand that its hard for me to deal with everything because, you cant look at me and see the problems. Trying to slowly educate myself, and her as well. She is finally helping some in taking a stand against her family and the comments they make about how I should stay home, and not go fishing all the time. They know I am Bipolar, but since they cant see it, and since they dont live with me, they dont "get it". My wife is starting to. I was an asshole to her the other night. I appologized for my actions. It was over the top. I hope she can accept my appology and realize that when I have those moments, I yell. But yelling back at me will only make it worse. That isnt fair for her, but I need her to calm me down. Talk to me. Make me understand what I did/am doing. Hopefully if something this severe happens again, she can remember this talk and help me out of that moment. Because that night was so severe, I ended up going fishing. It is one of the few things I can do that helps......level me off. Clears my head.... Gets me excited when I catch my big fish which I need to upload to my profile. Getting excited about fishing, gets me to forget the bad times. It may be a cover.... but it is a chance to make me happy again so that we can have those serious talks about me and MY health.

So to answer your question, I guess okay. Will she forget what I did, no. Does she understand it is the Bipolar, she's getting there. Does it make it better, no. Because I still wish I didnt do it to begin with.