Having one of those days. Not quite sure where I'm at. Think I've just come out of a hypomanic episode (I'm a very rapid cycler, +-1 week) and the last two days I have not been able to describe my emotions at all.

Some posts by others have affected me ridiculously, and at other times I feel strong as a rock. I am either highly emotional, exhausted, dull... I actually don't know.

I keep having to go back on my posts as I've restarted a sentence halfway along the sentence (That probably doesn't make sense, but I effectively duplicate parts of the sentence) It's like I switch off entirely and don't realise quite what I'm doing.

At some stage I can get so emotional, all I want is to be held. I kind of feel like crying but I'm not there. Not at that stage, and I definitely couldn't.
The smallest thing can trigger huge anxiety or rage in me. I took off at my boyfriend as he phoned me on the way home yesterday. He wanted me to stop off and get take aways, but when my usual road home was closed to roadworks and I had to detour (It was probably not even 500m off the normal route!) I just yelled at him to get the damn take-aways as I was about to have a nervous breakdown. Luckily he was very supportive and understanding.
This morning my PC decides to rage a war with me - the mouse is plugged in, yet will only move once I finally give in and restart the computer. Then my spreadsheets freeze for over an hour and I cannot do anything in the meantime (Other than catch up on PC!)

I'm just feeling a bit like my cage is being rattled - I cannot express my feelings, yet am becoming clingy. I can feel a bit of anxiety, I have the concentration of a goldfish, I JUST DON'T KNOW ANYMORE.

And all of my meds are actually on low doses, so I don't think it's the meds?!?!?!?