Hey Ladies, thanks for the input and insight.
My appointment is for next Friday... still quite anxious about it, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there, no use working myself into a frenzy for 2 weeks...
Because I find it easier to sleep in the morning, I came into work late today to give myself a chance to rest...
My mom gave me some herbal calming tablets that she has been using since my dad passed on...I don't think it helped me to fall asleep, but the quality of sleep was much better. I think I got an extra 2 hours, cause 5 is quite sufficient for me.
I'm still happy,hyper, fidgety, basically bouncing off the walls...which I don't mind, this feels more like me than I've felt in the last few weeks.But I've been a bit reckless... Friday, I just left work early, knowing I could get into serious trouble, but not caring at all. I was bored, and hyper, and needed to get out of here, so I just took my stuff and left. Lucky for me, my friend got a promo and is now my supervisor, but he had every right to discipline me for insubordination and job abandonment...he didn't...
I've spent my paycheck already, flat broke till next week thursday, you'd think I'd learn after so long. But somehow my ideas, and spending are justified at the time. And it's not so much that I regret the decisions I make when I'm so elated, I just wish I'd be less impulsive...
but I like me like this, this is the me I know and love, but the no sleeping is escalating, that's my only concern...
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Definitely sounds like a manic episode to me...I would recommend you print out your post to take with you when you go for your evaluation with the doctor.
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Thanks for the tip, I will definately take it with me. I'm so scared I'm going to forget something, or he's going to dismiss me like everyone else (outside of PC) that I'm religiously writing in my journal, about everything, even the cuts on my arms, and I've also been keeping a mood tracker that I found here on PC (the stats are a bit worrying right now, but I feel great so I'm not really paying attention to it)
Anyway, ladies, I'm rambling again, so sorry, but I'm sure you understand when I say I honestly cannot help myself...
Thanks so much for your support, I love u guys!!!