I feel i need to talk, but more to try make sense of what's going on in my head. It sounds like a complete mess and ramble up there.
I think Rescue may be OK, but just be sure to run it past your pdoc next week. I actually also have a bottle of that stuff - it's 30% or so alcohol if you take the drops - hehe.

I am feeling like i want to give up smoking at the moment - the quantitiy of smokes at work has definitely decreased; about 3