Zooropa,

Good for you for trusting your t enough to tell her some really hard stuff! I know that after telling her those things, you probably feel like !! But it's important stuff to get out in the open. T's are trained and equipped to listen to painful experiences. Far from thinking you are bad or gross, as she said, she feels honored that you can trust her enough to share your feelings with her. Keep reminding yourself of that when you start fearing that she'll think less of you. And as Tree has experienced, the more you are able to open up to your t and see that her caring and commitment to you aren't lessening, the more your trust and safety in the relationship with grow. And it's that kind of trust and safety that makes it easier to do this difficult healing work.