I have been through periods where I cry every day. I take mirtazapine, 40mg a day, and either that or my weight being healthy now (just recovered from anorexia) has helped me out of the depression, I feel ok now. I still suffer with anxiety and it's hard to go out, but the depression isn't really there.... so there IS hope. You don't have to feel this way forever and it's unlikely that you will.
If your meds aren't helping, try to discuss that with your doctor and see if you can try another one. There's no use taking something that doesn't work, especially when something else might work well for you.
Is there any chance of you changing jobs? Perhaps if it's not possible RIGHT NOW, you could start to make steps to make that possible at some point?
Do you know 'why' you hate your job? Is it the actual job, the people you work with? Perhaps if you understand those things you can find something that would suit you better.
My situation was different because I was living at home and had no bills etc, but when I was 16 I began working in a nursery, I worked there until I was 19, I felt I had to stay in the job because I was studying a qualification there and I thought I "had" to finish it, that I would be letting myself and my mum down if I quit.... but by the time I left I was SO ill with depression, anorexia and stress that I think I will possibly struggle with issues my whole life now. At 16, I began working and I hated it nearly immediately. The job was stressful, the people I worked with were horrid, and I just couldn't cope. I collapsed under the pressure of it all, I developed severe depression and anorexia. If I could go back and leave that job when I first started to slip, if I could tell myself "IT'S NOT WORTH IT", gosh, I would.
If your job is making you ill, if you're waking up and crying about the idea of going to work, maybe it is best for YOU to leave. Is it really worth being this upset? Are there other options? If there are I really urge you to take them.
You should disscuss it more with your T, ask for more strategies or ideas of how you can cope better with the stress. She's right that you would benefit from fitting something into your life that you enjoy, but I know sometimes it's hard to fit it in or to have the energy. You should definately push the meds thing if they are not working though, just a small tweek could help you to feel better.
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