I think a 4th step is in order. There is obviously a huge resentment at your family right now, and we all know that resentments make us use. Sit down, write down what they did, how it affects you, and find your part. You know you have one. And ask your Higher Power to remove the defect. It's back to basics now. Or better yet, start at step one. "You're powerless over your family situation as well as your addiction and your life is becoming unmanageable." Go from there. Work all the steps on the situation. As far as the obsession goes, I had it bad today. Something changed at work and I hate change. I got myself to a meeting straight after work, then went to another, then went for dinner with my fellow AA's, then drove straight home and thanked my Higher Power for keeping me sober one more day. I had to take it hour by hour. You went to any lengths to use, now it's time to go to any lengths to stay sober. Your crappy family situation is not your ticket to get high. You make that decision on your own. As long as you're keeping the resentment, your keeping a reservation, and reservations are only made with the intent to use. Do a 4th step hourly if need be. You don't have to use ever again, if you don't want to. Keep coming back, don't use no matter what, hit your knees, keep it simple, this too shall pass, sometimes you're the windshield and sometimes your the bug. Keep your head up and say, "I will not use today." You can do it sister.

~Rayna