Rayna, I know how you are feeling. Life is full of change and we as people HATE change. There is allot of fear in change. We may not like where we are at now but we know what it is like and are use to it. But the unknown out there, we do not know what it will be like and what is waiting for us out there. Change is scarey for all of us but change is just another part of life. Why is it that you think they are just being nice to you because of the program? Maybe there are some underlying issues here that we cannot see that has triggered this all off. I know the word HALT. I am lonely now and that is bad enough. I have to look inside of myself and see why I am feeling the way I am. There is always a reason we have feelings. Maybe do some soul searching and see what it is that is underneath all of this and may be cause you some troubles. Yes, it is easy to say you are right where you should be, but I know what that feels like on the other end. It didnt make me feel any better though. I believe something else is bothering you and I am not sure what it is. You are the one who needs to seach yourself and find the answers. I really wish I had the right answer for you but this is the best I can come up with right now. My thoughts are with you.

Allan