Thanks for support
no place else to go, stuck in my head
obsessed with the guy, nerves on edge, wires in my brain sparking and snapping, short circuits everywhere, jumping at the feeling of my own clothes on my skin, jumping at nothing
triggers everywhere

want T, wish something could help, too much to take
want the guy to call, want to call, want him, want him, want him, worried sick
worried about every little thing, the news, my sister, my health, when I'll die, grad school, grandpa, grandma, parents, brother, money, the guy the guy the guy (OBSESSION)

feeling guilty, can't afford to fly out for the funeral

bad coping skills here I come
someone take this feeling away