Ha, I definitely can relate. Before I met my most current boyfriend, I was not leading the most healthy lifestyle. Granted, I wasn't getting wasted every night or anything, but I definitely would take advantage of my weekend nights and sometimes see how drunk I could get and look up my blood alcohol level online, or other times(quite often) go drinking and smoking(weed) and walking alone at night through my neighborhood. I no longer smoke and of course don't drink excessively because I don't want my boyfriend to see me like that, and have thus promised my boyfriend to never again walk alone at night- a bad habit of mine that I've been trying to break(sober or not) for over ten years now. I remember watching a stand up comedian talk about how as he gets older, he feels like he's getting younger. I can definitely relate to that. Maybe because I never really pushed the boundaries growing up or did any drinking and such until college- never the partying type- the key for me has been to find more fun activities as an outlet(lots of funny websites/games as an example) so that I don't feel compelled to do something risky that puts my life in danger(like get loaded and go out to a bar alone- something I've only done a handful of times, never bringing anyone home, thank god!) =)