I feel like I am good at nothing. I know that there is no actual proof of this except that I feel like everything is so difficult. What is wrong with me? I want to work in community mental health and it requires doing presentations. Not my forte, but I think that doing this would be a good thing for me to improve in my life. So I'm on my third interview for a job that I probably will get, but I have to do a five minute speech on depression. Should be simple. I am not even really nervous about speaking because it is only in front of three people. The unfortunate thing is that most of the speeches I have done in my life have been for school and have really been quoting (stealing, whatever you like to call it) from other poeple. I don't want to plagarize my presentation, but no one has ever taught me how to go about preparing one. I feel like an idiot and its times like these when I feel like there is no real point to my existing. I can't do these things! Why is every minute a struggle! I go from one struggle to the next and numb myself with my drug of choice - food - along the way. I just don't know what to do anymore. I hate myself because I should be able to do these things.