Thanks guys....I was too tired to post why I was upset. The girl I've been working with since February is being transfered. She works through an agency, and my company is bringing in a full time employee where I work, so she has to go. I trained her in phlebotomy for the most part, and she became like a little sister. She knows all about my recovery. We found out at 3pm on Friday, so we didn't have time to process and we just got really uspet. We're gonna miss working together so much. We'll keep in touch, but we won't have that every day interaction. So it's a big change for my daily life. There bringing in a guy. Don't know if I'll feel comfortable telling him about my recovery. I brought it up as a topic at the meeting and was quite upset, and got some really good stuff. One lady said, "When a door closes, a window opens." As it turns out, the girl who was my best friend in the program until she got a boyfriend, ended up talking to me after the meeting and asked if we can get together to talk. So we're gonna meet on Monday. I see my sponser tomorrow. So that's why I was so upset. As far as not feeling like I fit in with the young people on Fridays, it's just my low self esteem and ego talking. They don't know me very well yet, so I feel like they don't like me because I don't have the relationships with them yet that they have with each other. It was better last night though. I felt like I was opening up more. I just have to remember that I ONLY have 5 months of sobriety! I keep expecting too much, for being so young. I get confused easy and read too much into things. This guy asked me if I've checked out this 7:00 meeting on Saturdays and if I'd l ike to go. I can't, because I'm having dinner with my family. But I was thinking.....wow, he just asked me to go to a meeting with him! And then I think I'm crazy and reading too much into it. I get comfortable in my sobriety and think I have it all figured out. Days like yesterday are there to remind me that I don't know everything, to get back in the center of the roof. I am so greatful for reminders, so greatful that I didn't drink, so greatful that I can come here and vent this stuff, and get really good replies. Thank you for being a part of my sobriety. =)

~Rayna