It's really sad, that I have a huge family, and apparently quite a few friends, yet perfect strangers are the only ones who understand what I go through.

I jis wish it would end, I'm so tired...
don't know how much u know about me, but I havnt' been dxd with anything, 1st appt is next friday, my point is, i was bored and reading everything and anything to keep busy, then 4 some reason I took this bloody quizz which says it's highly likely that I suffer from BPD...My social worker thinks I'm BP, the computer thinks I'm BP+BPD, and now that stupid woman I just want to hurt HARD. It's too MUCH!!!

I know I shouldn't take people's concerns and online tests seriously, but now I'm scared the pdoc is gonna tell me things I'm not ready to handle...
maybe I should cancel, I've been struggling so long, I'm used to it. PLUS Ignorance is bliss...
I jis wanna dig a hole