2 much! My life has been 1 helleva emotional rollercoaster ride for as long as I can remember, and this last year, was just the cherry on the cake. I've jis had enough.
It's like whatever happens, it's worse, bigger, deeper than the last. That's the main reason I get suicidal (not wanting to know what's next). I know I should keep my appt. but it's really hard right now cos ontop of all the things I described feeling above, add fear to it now...

this is spiralling out of control, plus I havn't slept for mor than 3 hours in like 2 weeks, and I think somehow that is adding to all THIS...

I'm SO SORRY I don't know if I'm making much sense, my thoughts are like a fricken pingpong ball ina rubber room right now...

How do u make it go away? all these FEELINGS???? I prayed so hard this wasn't gonna happen again for along time, but just my luck hey...