Last night had another flashback that I did not know about - my dad saying "I gave you like and I can take it from you" while choaking me !!! OMG!! I have sent T 10 emails since then. I finally said "I NEED TO KNOW YOU ARE THERE!" and he wrote back and said he was there. That was comfort.

I have realized so much from my past that I did not know -- how is it that this one little thing has me so mad when he did so much to me? It doesn't make sense!