Thank you all for your replies and sympathy. It means a lot.

Echoes - I am so sorry you are feeling this way too. I certainly relate to your feelings. It really is so hard to be positive sometimes but I know that is the key to feeling better. I hope you are feeling better soon.

Lisa Michelle - I really am excited that a change is coming in my life. I have really wanted this for so long. I have been scared and ran away from things before and I know that I can't do that here. I have to at least try to be a good doc. If I don't try I will always wonder what it would have been like to practice and wonder if I would have been any good at it. The only true failure is not trying, right? I think I read that somewhere anyway... I will just have to be patient in the meantime until the house sells.

Sophia G - thank you for the link. I read the thread you wrote. It was a very interesting read and I am still trying to wrap my mind around it all. It sounds very similar to how my therapist helps me to see things. If I focus on the positive instead of the negative I can change the way I think about things and how I handle life. I do get it. It is just so hard to apply the knowledge.

I am feeling better today. The hubby and I are going to take a long weekend and go visit his family. Should be fun and relaxing.

Thank you all again. It really means a lot to know others care.