hey...don't worry about your post....we post lots of stuff here and share our thoughts together....nobody really cares and we don't judge each other....

Your feelings for him is totally valid....and I suggest if you really really like him, just tell him....tell him that you really enjoy his company and if he was not engaged, you would have liked to know him better....that's all....and just keep it simple....

I have a very good guy friend for more than 12 years....I had big crush on him always....(not anymore)....He's two years older than me and I've never seen him with any girl....he's 38 now....figure out....at some point I thought he's gay....I might have told him even.....I know he loves me so much (not sure which kind of love, probably like a sister)....the only girl's picture you see in his facebook is me....even I found out he tagged one of my pictures under his name (I'm alone in the photo!) he wanted the photo to be under his profile.....

by that I mean, you never know what is going on in the guy's mind....sometimes, they have sexual issues and they know they can't please a girl, so they say that they have a girlfirend to be safe...or just even he has really a girlfriend....

but again my suggestion to you is to tell him the truth....trust me nothing bad will happen....probably even he opens up to you....you never know!

good luck
Marjan