(((( rainbow )))) actually, those are excellent words of wisdom! :-) Thank you!
I do have boundary issues. The odd thing is that I do not at all blame T for any of the internal pain I am in. I know for certain it is all my own fault and my own doing... the way I see things or thing things should be. It is just so confusing for me because he tells me "trust me" and then when I do... it hurts in some way or the other... and I just don't know what he means when he says "trust me"... So I suppose now it just means "Trust me to be the normal T" :-) LOL at myself!