My counselor told me that if I get more into the details of what I went through I'll feel better, because when I "talk about it" I can begin to NO longer have it on my mind, whilst not realizing it.

I remember when I was younger abruptly someone would just enter a room. He would begin raping me with his reproductive organ. He would rape me orally, and with his hands. there would be days he would strip me of my clothing to rape me, and then he would strangle me so tightly I'd turn blue.

The same boy would constantly molest me very frequently, succeeded at reeling me in. totally used me, bamboozled me. Become my friend just to ind ways to make me more likely to stay around me so he can continue his mean behavior. he would also stick my head in the water to the point where I drowned, lethally choke me on bones. A relative told someone who worked at my school about what he did, and some of the authorities didn't believe it. Even my own mother has a difficult time believing it and doesn't know when to and when not to believe it. Even the girl who knew me since 07' and says I am her best friend and that she loves me doesn't believe it. I wish I never entered a relation ship with the guy who abused me. I have underwent lots of types of blackouts for a while of the abuse. Sometimes I just remember some of the things I went through which renders the abuse I went through so on going that in my book it qualifies as severe. I asked my counselor how to remember black outs and she said she didn't know. Later she had me partake in sand therapy.