I am really sorry to hear all the negative stuff from your work, it seems like someone may have put the payroll there for you to see, maybe someone else who thinks you should be getting paid more, or maybe the new person who would like to see you quit because that person knows that you are better. Check with the labour board and try not to back down or you will be no farther ahead(JUST A SUGGESTION) I know that making waves is hard but usually it all works out for you in the end.
On my last job the person I worked with at the youth centre kept telling me that she felt that I was getting all the praise for jobs well done, I was the youth program co-ordinator.. To make a long story short she was jelouse of me and she should not have been because she was good at what she did for the most part, anyhow she set me up to get fired.
I was very upset and cried etc. but my boss believed her. I have not applied for any work in my field since as I am feeling pretty usless, on the other hand I also know that I was working for an agency that was corupt and am glad not to be working for these people.
As far as your T- goes I would suggest that if he does not think he ca help you anymore then ask for a new referal for a different T. Ask him what you hav progressed in and how he can help you get further ahead, if he does not have any ideas then get someone else. He may be just burned out.
I would also want to know when he plans on not seeing you as his client anymore and to set some realistic goals and expectations with and for you both. A T- can only help if you want the help and that T- has to be the right person for you!!!!
I was with my T- for over two tears and we did a lot of work together, he was clear with me in telling me that in one year he would b ending his sessions with me(he is a psyc. in training) he was excellent and let me ramble on all the time. He had me make a positive statements book to look at all the positive things people would say about me and I would also write down how that made me feel.(I have a lot of trouble believing that I am any good and it feels like the positive stuff people said was not really about me)
Anyhow when the time came for our last session which was in July this year I felt like I was in no way ready for him to leave, but I had no choice. It felt like the world had fallen apart and I was standing there all alone.
I had a real hard time at first but I adjusted and now I am back in my old psyc. group, which helps a little.
I can relate to how you feel because I want my T back and I still feel lost without him, but at least I was prepared for knowing when it would end.
He at least had that kind of respect for me, and you should try and get the same from your T.
You deserve it, you work hard and you can't get better in just --- amount of time everyone is different and needs different things
So PLEASE don't give up trying, you can make it, it sounds like you made it through a lot already.
Hope this helps a little Take Care of your self.
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