I have those same feelings, but I try to resist them. Lately I have found myself wanting my therapist to 'rescue' me from the horrible thoughts and feelings, but it is in a unhealthy way. I am trying to rely on my on coping skills as much as possible. I think that when we have a mental illness we desire that feeling of being cared for because having a mental illness is just so draining. Sometimes we crave being able to completely let go and let someone else handle it. I think the thoughts of being hurt may mean that we want to feel pain in another way so that people can see it instead of feeling so trapped inside of our bodies. This post has really made me think and I am having a hard time admitting that I do have these feelings.