Next appt is still 12 days off ...

this morning I was mentally listing the "issues" by which my life keeps getting tripped up, and when I got to six, I was startled by a thought that only half an hour earlier I had been considering quitting, since I really don't know what I am supposed to do in next session.

This seems like a lack of focus. Maybe due to the long time interval (a month, yikes). Or maybe it's just one more facet of self hatred teling myself that I am wasting T's time, and SHE would rather that I quit.

Does anyone else ever have widely fluctuating feelings about "I really need to do this" and "I really don't need to do this" ?