I'm sliding up into hypomania...it's been a long time since I've been hypomanic. Not sleeping as much and not overly tired even though I'm not getting my regular amount of sleep. Extremely bored even with plenty of things to do, concentration is erratic, getting irritable, and when I'm outside everything looks...how to describe it?...more colorful than usual that make any sense? Also getting headaches which I get with hypomania other times I rarely get headaches. I think because everything seems so bright. IDK. For now I'll wait it out because I start with new pdoc in a couple of weeks so I don't want to have to see my old pdoc I'm not sure if they would get me in with my new one yet since I haven't done intake with him so I'd probably have to see old one and I hate him, well dislike very much. I don't really hate anyone, seems a waste of energy to hate someone and it doesn't bother them if I hate them it only bothers me so theres no point to it. I'm also more hungry than usual, also for me a sign of hypomania I know it's mixed up most people get more hungry when depressed but not me. Sister is on her way to pick me up to run errands so I have to go see you later. Does this post make any sense?
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From the movie The Hours: "If I were thinking clearly, Leonard, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know. Only I can understand my condition. You live with the threat, you tell me you live with the threat of my extinction. Leonard, I live with it too."
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