so... it's not healing ... it's really just avoidance again, under another guise? am I EVER going to get down this road any perceptible amount?!

avoidance... that might figure... I say I don't know where we go in next session after all this time, but I have a lurking suspicion that we are at a point (again) where I have to think & talk about what T calls "self forgiveness" and it is like those words are in some language I cannot understand. I can feel the anxiety just typing it out.

how can you possibly get anything done in an hour after an interval of four weeks? I hate the one hour chunk. whoever thought that up I demand a recount.