Not at all... I consider myself a good parent and I have at one time or another felt the same way you are feeling now... I think most parents go through this. My two boys are now young men (25 & 20) and I found just having a day away every other week gave me the inner peace and strength I needed to make it through another month of parenting when the boys were young and driving me crazy.

Do you have family or a good friend that you could leave your boys with for the weekend or for just for a day away so you can pamper your self.

And as well... I cant leave this topic with out asking - Why is that you think your boys are being so wild... what type of reinforcement do you use to maintain control of any given situation that may arise in the home?