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I feel like I ought to be able to stay in control without artificial help like SJW and light therapy, or even talk therapy. There's no tangible reason for me to get like this, but it happens anyway.

We talk about this alot in my bi-polar group and I have talked about it with other people who have suffered different types of mental illness. The concensus with that our illnesses are labled wrong. They are called mental illnesses when in fact they are physical illnesses that have psychological affects. This does a disservice to us because not only do we lose our insurance coverage for our medical treatment because we are labled "mental" but we also carry the lable into our daily lives and hold to the ideal that it is some charector flaw in our thinking. Both of these things prolong our illnesses because we just are not getting the proper care from two fronts. We have to take care of ourselves while at the same time we are thinking that we are "just acting out" and should be able to do better. It makes me sad. I may have brain damage caused by poor brain development because of being raped when I was twelve and mentally shutting down so my brain shed more connections then it should have during the teenage brain growth spurt and shedding of excess connection. As a person with BPD it is likely my brain is up to 15% smaller in the 2 key areas of memory and emotion. But do I get the same medical care and rehabilitation that a person would get if she recieved trauma to the brain do to a car accident. No. Even though my problem is caused by traumatic events I am still labled "mental".

*Carrie steps down off her soap box."

Just something to think about.
CK

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson