I too have battled depression for many years with all sorts of ups and downs. Right now, I'm in a definite valley in my life with job problems, financial woes and the usual stuff of life's low points. My problems seem to be compounded by the fact that my friends, my "support people", are all at high points in their lives. I want to be truly happy for them, but I am sad to admit that I am more bitter than happy about how well life is treating them. Of course, the bitterness makes my misery even worse and then I add in guilt for not be able to just be happy for my friends. I feel like l am a miserable friend, a poor excuse for a human being who, no doubt, doesn't deserve anything good happening. How can I learn to be happy for my friends -- or do I need to stop seeing them until we are on more even ground (which, barring a miracle, isn't going to happen in my life very soon.)?