Well, it has been a little while since I checked in here. I have seen my new psychiatrist twice now, so not for very long. She has so far diagnosed me with Mood Disorder NOS, which actually is just sorta frustrating. I looked it up and there isn't much about it. Just basically that it is the "garbage bin" of disorders. In other words the name they give to the things they cannot name. That isn't really comforting. It's like saying, "Hey, I don't know what the hell is going on so I'm just gonna say that you are an outcast among the outcasts, okay?" I know it's early on and that from what I've read this is often an initial diagnosis that is changed into something more specific as your doctor gets to know you better, but from how she is talking it somehow feels like it is more permanent. I shared how I felt with her-- how I don't necessarily enjoy the thought of being diagnosed with something specific, but it seems more probable that it can be treated when it has a real name and symptoms, and she said something like, "yes, but what you have is more complex than that, and that is the short version." What's the long version? Anyone with Mood Disorder NOS that wants to add to that? Please?

Since I last posted I have also discovered that many of my symptoms fit in even better with Borderline Personality Disorder than Bipolar, as I originally thought. Not all of the symptoms for borderline fit me, but if I had to pinpoint any specific diagnosis as me, that would be it. Would anyone be willing to share their experiences with Borderline Personality Disorder? The DSM listing of the symptoms is sort of dry and non-explanatory and a more expressive explanation might help me sort out what I am going through. Thank you!!