Hi hippyman, I'm sorry you are second guessing yourself right now. I know that when things are going good for me I immediately start waiting for the other shoe to drop and bad things to start happening. When I get like that I like to put myself in a holding pattern until I can grow a little more confidant about my next move. I would rather travel on co-pilot for a little while unless a decision needs to be made right away. I think you should bring your concerns up with your therapist. I am sorry you are feeling trapped and stuck. shaggy