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Originally Posted by Elana05
I haven't been sleeping well. I feel so anxious tonight. I don't know who I am or what will become of me. I know I am the one responsible for my life, but that hasn't worked out so well for me so far. All I can think is "what am I going to do?" over and over. Therapy is helping, I know. But on the other hand sometimes all it does is throw these questions back at me to answer. It feels like it's going to take forever. I feel so tired and very confused.
I'm worried about not pulling my weight in my relationship, and being too much of a burden due to depression and past issues that I just seem to shake.
I'm worried that I can't be strong and independent and in control of my life while also being in a relationship with someone else (child of an alcoholic thing I guess).
Also I have a medical issue that is getting worse and I'm worried. I need to see a doc but they're all booked up and it's been so difficult to find one. I have one last option in calling my insurance directly but even that I can't do until after the holiday, which makes me feel concerned.
Sorry about my rambling tonight. It just feels better to put it down here. 
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You sound as if you have had a few things in life, that have brought you down, Im sorry that things in your past have not been kind to you. I have reached a stage in my life too, when Im trying to make sense of my direction in life, and really nobody quite knows which way their's are gonna go. If only we had a book, to help us, for when times get tough and we can't quite figure out what moves to take, would be good, dont you think, sending you a few
to keep you strong