I am having a really hard time staying focused. My moods are all over the place. I want to do stuff and I have plenty of stuff I need to do but I am just sitting in my apartment reading. It is like I have plans to change things, but when it is time to change things, I just don't and that frustrates me. I feel stuck in my fear. I remember feeling like this about 30 years ago. Usually I am at least out the door looking for work. I need to get motivated again to finish the changes I started at the beginning of the year. I know the first step will be the hardest and that has already been set in motion in the middle of the month...that will be the big step. Then I will have to adjust to the changes which should be a relief anyway. But I just really need to get extra support from you guys until then.