Gee- I thought we'd lost you-----been awhile! Good to hear from you!
Glad to hear you are working on this.
I just reread my replies to you; I have to tell you; I really don't have all the attributes you've given me in your post. I still struggle.
I really don't know what "normal" is--but after all the years in therapy, and working
on myself, I am able to FEEL.
Sometimes I feel silly,

sometimes sad,

I even get up on my soap box from time to time,

I often feel frightened and out of my depth,

I even panic.....my mind starts to
run away from me,

and I have to go get it back.

lol
Nah- not "normal" at all--------I don't really want to be that anyway

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Life is rough--we all struggle--I am glad I may have given you hope---wow that feels good!!! I am glad you've come back-----I send you hugs----theo