I duno maybe I am just a self destructive person so by nature I think this, but at times I almost want to die so I can make those who I feel don't care enough feel bad for not appreciating me.

It's messed up and horribly selfish I know, but I can't help but feel sometimes that that is what it would take to get some acknowledgment and appreciation....

I'm not gonna kill myself don't worry, I'm just making a statement that has been bugging me a while now...