11 years is a long time WendyAussie, congratulations. Thank you for sharing through your post. It's good to hear that you are at peace with the decisions you've made. You have an indomitable spirit that is refreshing to see. I am so glad you have a good support system for yourself in your mental health team. I'm just not quite sure what you mean by surrendering though. It sounds like a good concept since it is working so well for you and I may like to apply it to some of my situations so if you could would you explain to me what you mean. thanks shaggy