Thanks for the kind words Duchess I am mending slowly but surely. The pain grows less and less every day and I don't feel so horrible anymore. There are moments when certain memories and thoughts come rushing back, but I just try to keep busy and they eventually go away again. I am now learning to love myself again. That's the key right? I guess talking about it helped a lot. Now the ultimate test would be to run into him somewhere. I just hope that that doesn't happen in the near future.