You are not a poor excuse for a human being. Never think like that. You, like everyone else on this forum, are special, unique and you deserve to have good things happen to you. And they will. However, this tends to take time. Sometimes you may feel like your world has come to a dead stop while your friends' have it made. Don't feel badly about resenting this. It's only human. Just don't let it destroy your friendships. Whenever these thoughts come into your head, just try thinking about how important these people are to you and what life would be like if they weren't around. And most importantly don't give up hope that good things are coming your way. Take care. I have come to believe that we go through things in life to make us into the people we are destined to be.