yea I know. There's alot I don't remember and it is hard when I find pictures, poems and journal entries that I don't remember doing about things I don't remember. but you know Vicki even though I hated finding those things it made things easier for me. If I couldn't remember what I had done that day I could open my journal and see that I paid this bill or went here or there and did this and that. I no longer worry about the lack of memory through out the day. Keeping journals while I was in the memory pieces named Katherine, Mary and so on made it easier for when I had to start looking at the things that happened when I was a kid. You might say journal writing was one part of starting communication between me and my memory pieces. Another non past containing thing I did was writing notes to my memory pieces and while in those memory pieces I wrote back. For example if I couldn't find the remote I would write on a piece of paper "does anyone know where the remote is?" and I would leave the note on the table or hung on the fridge. A couple days later the remote would be on the table with a note in another handwriting as to where it was. I would write notes that I was going grocery shopping and ask if anyone needed anything. the next day or so a note appears saying bubbles, rhubarb and so on. Once I got used to this kind of thing finding something that had content from the past wasn't so bad. Its still abit weird, and scarey but now I see the gory pictures or peoms or paragraphs and think "great someone is trying to tell me something" Sometimes I throw them away and write a note that I "need more time please don't leave them where I can find them" Other times if they seem to fit in with what I am working on at the moment I write a thank you note, and still other times I give the stuff to my therapist because I don't want to throw it away (something about it says its improtant but I don't see the connection) and I don't want it in my house at the moment either. I know my memory pieces have things that I need to know and now Im open to finding out what that is but it took a bit of time for this to happen. I was not the one that started the communication stuff. I would be doing something like writing to a friend or writing in my journal and I would see the words - Ignore-ance does not disprove existance. and the handwriting was Katherines. She would write all kinds of phylasophical stuff like that. I started writing just to get her to stop writing that stuff. My past therapist thought it was so funny because she had already been on the recieving end of Katherines witty and to the point comments. The point is there is plenty of time for you to tell her what she needs to know. and it will happen when she is ready to know those things. Glad to hear you don't tell lies any more that will make it easier for her to get ready to find out what truths you do know that she does not.