If he has it, he is still my sweet son.

It will explain a lot of difficulty he has had at school. He was tested for dyslexia and some other learning disabilities last year which started this whole thing for us. He probably has ADHD too.

I am afraid that I won't be able to provide him the environment he would need because I have mental illness (possible diagnoses include, bipolar, OCD, ADHD, and psychosis) that is in and out of stability. From what I read, kids with Aspergers need stable routines to function well. He may have ADHD either instead or in conjunction with Aspergers. He also suffers from anxiety and depression, and a developmental delay called retained asymetrical tonic neck reflex.

I have read about nystagmus and I hope it is just innocuous because the other possibilities are grim.

I want him to have a good life with happiness and joy. I am just afraid that I wouldn't be able to provide him with what he needs.