it can be embarrassing talking about your feelings.you feel like you shouldn't feel this way.but everyone has those feelings of not fitting in.it is how you respond to those feelings.if you let them eat you up,they take over who you are.the real you is in there and knows that you have self worth.we cant usually choose who our parents are or who we grow up around but always stay true to yourself.you are a good person who has closed up it seems.fear takes over,but break through it.the stronger you believe you are the stronger you will be.accept yourself cause you are special.god would not want you feeling this way.you said you had friends last year and got asked out.that means your personality is attracting.dont let your doubts stop you.there will be many years of unneeded hurt if you do.it is hard to find the people in your life that you can trust enough to let close but if we keep everyone away then we dont get to chose the good ones to keep around.hold your head high and be proud of who are you.....easier said than done,but it is do-able.always smile.let your love shine through the hurt.dont let people take advantage of your weaknesses.many people would like to see pics of naked girls,but that doesn't mean your special cause they want to look at you.as soon as you say no they will move on to the next person.a person who wants to talk to you will respect you and they are a million times worth more than anyone who wants to see a naked pic.i am not a doc but i feel for you and i hope a word of encouragement helped..... smile with your heart