((( zoo ))) oh boy do I understand that pain of feeling like I shared way too much with T... just makes a person wish they could pull it all back inside and not have T know those things... And big hugs to you about the flashbacks and nightmares... man... I hated that part of my trauma work most of all. It felt like I was under water with my emotions and I could not catch my breath at all. It felt like you just said - so totally alone. The fact is that you were alone while you were abused. I am so sorry that happened to you. It is a hard thing to accept that a human could do those things to a child. The alone feeling was the truth of that time period.

It takes a lot to keep ahold of some of the NOW stuff while you are experiencing the trauma memories and doing your trauma healing. It is very important that you stay hand in hand with your T at this time. The truth is that while you were alone when all that was going on, you now are not alone. You know now how to get the comfort you need and the support you need. You give support to others and they give support to you. The truth is that you are NOT alone in this NOW. But yes, you will feel the pain of the truth of being alone in that NOW that you are processing through.

BIG BIG hugs to you!!!