I have a lot of performance anxiety when it comes to talking to my T on the phone. Well, actually, I have it when talking to her in person too. But the phone calls, it's hard. I feel like I'm interrupting her from whatever it is she's doing, and I have to make it worth her while. That I can't hem and haw or be unsure about what I'm saying. Part of that is because she tries to limit the length of the phone calls, and part of it is just me. It's always a struggle, deciding when to call her and what to say. I think it goes back to not feeling worthy of Ts time or her help...I don't know.

I also struggle with knowing about her non-T activities. On the one hand, it helps to know she's just a person doing stuff like everyone else. On the other hand, I want her to be my strong T who is in her office every week when I get there and the thought of her being out the world is scary because the world is scary and bad things happen to people out there. I don't want anything bad to happen to T.