I am SO proud of you and so glad you took the risk and asked your boss. Was she receptive? How did she react? (Maybe you posted about this before? Im sorry). You are moving forward in a very real way, not "convincing" yourself that you can do this or that. I see huge changes in you. I guess that is the way it is "supposed to" work. We sort of become more of who we are. The grown-up version. I feel more grown-up and able to do things I never thought I could before, but I get freaked out by that and want to sabatoge myself.