I've been thinking about this, a lot, and decided that I felt pressured (by myself!) to list ALLLL the ways I've changed since starting therapy, and that was too huge, so here are just SOME of the ways I've changed:

I feel. Not just anger and depression, but joy and peace and HOPE sometimes too.

I know that it's ok to have needs and to ask for them to be met.

Figuring out that not everything that has happened to me is my fault. That was a huge one.

Also figuring out that there are good people out there, and I'm lucky enough to know some of them. I have real, lasting friendships now, because I am better and I am working hard at being a good friend. The healthier I get, the more people want to be with me. It is amazing.

I don't have to hurt myself anymore to make the feelings go away. Learning that those feelings weren't going away anyway, and that pushing them away only makes them come back harder. I think it's been several months since I cut.

I can talk about what happened to me, some of it anyway. I never EVER spoke of it before therapy, before THIS T. Ever. I'm learning that speaking it, while it is hard and painful and almost overwhelming, won't kill me. That the only way out is through.