I just now sent an email stating that I did not want my mom or my pickle-in-her-butt sister at my house but if they wish to film them at their house that is okay.

There are some episodes that are humiliating but that is to be expected when you display the reality of squalor that you live in. The problem is my sister and mother are likely to say something about my personality or whatever they perceive as weakness and viewers would not know that their comments are not justified. When I was at my family's house a week ago I was telling my pickle butt sister that I am planning to return to work per diem after I settle my issue with the IRS and she said, your doctor thinks you are okay to work in amazement. If she were on the show she could slander me and possibly ruin my chances of returning to graduate school if she questioned my sanity on the show.

Right. I know for sure that we would mention the domestic abuse and I am okay with that. I can say what I want while filming and if they ask something I don't want to discuss then I simply will not talk about it. My son is okay with that too and we have been talking about what aspects we are willing to share on camera.

I just don't know what to say to my family now about why I don't want them filming in my house. I have the feeling this is going to be a big problem. It would be karma wouldn't it if I told that my uncle sexually assaulted me and mentioned my mother's responses when she found out. I hate to cause trouble but I am angry because they treat me as if I am insignificant and I should just suck it up and be happy and pretend it didn't happen. In my mom's mind it didn't happen. In a way it would be kind of cathartic to ask her on camera what she thought a grown man and her young daughter were doing in the barn. We weren't playing checkers, ya know.

I just don't know. Jason seems to understand when I tell him sensitive information but his assistant does not. Another thing that she did that has me pissed off is she set up garbage service for my house without discussing it with me first. I told them that I had not paid my garbage bill for several years and I have bags and bags of trash that I have been storing in an outbuilding and I was thinking about calling to rent a dumpster and getting trash service started again. Well she had the professional organizer set up the trash service. She told me that in an email and I do not know yet if the trash service knows that I owe for several years. She should ask before she sets up a contract for my house despite the fact that I need the service. I was planning to do it myself.

I found this

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I am considering calling the ethics hotline and complaining if Jason doesn't fix this or if they do me wrong during the filming. I really could use the money and I am willing to expose myself but I am not willing to be slandered by my family.

I think I'll email my Pdoc and see what he thinks. How much humiliation is worth $3500?

I just don't know what to say to my family about all this.