(((((((((((jax))))))))))))))) i so understand!

i live with massive guilt. for about a year, i was a huge bully. i was an abused child acting out in pain. i was very unkind...not so much with words...physically. i feel shame and sorrow for that.

we turned it around to focusing our rage on other "bullies". we started sticking up for the kids that were bullied. my heart wasn't in being the bully and the rage turned appropriately.

we promised never to touch another human being ever after a certain incident when a teen. i won't go into that here, but it was bad. since then we've never attempted to "reach out" in rage anymore.

i can relate. we were hurt, confused children.

be safe,

kd