(((((HUGS))))) - It sounds as if you want a soft place to land no matter what you are thinking, no matter what you are feeling and no matter what you are doing. People who dont get it now (ie, your parents) wont ever get it but thats just because they cant.... okay, or they dont want to but it is what it is.

I find being here my soft place and I bet you are feeling better for being here, too. You dont need to look eye-to-eye with someone to have them understand. I am glad you found PC. It will be okay,