Those are some very good points, and i know you're right. Just one question. How did you discover what you were doing to keep them in place? Cause after so many years of being that way, it has become such a normal thing that I don't remember how it used to be. I can stop struggling consciously. But there are things within the unconscious that also need to be resolved. I have no qualms that I'll succeed, eventually. But it will take time.

@Theo: I didn't mean "normal" in that sense, more like being a normal human with a full spectrum of feelings.

Thanks everyone, and good luck to all others who're also having the same issue.