Do you feel your addicted to chaos? if there is peace in the home, do you feel the need to create conflict? I give you credit, at least you recognize you have a serious issue. I would suggest going to therapy and being brutally honest about your anger.

I sought out therapy for my anger and I now control it, it doesnt control me. I used to be a volcano, I kept spewing my venom until it was out, I felt relief, but hated myself for seeing the damage I had caused. Go to counseling, figure out why your so angry and begin living a new life.