I've never been so depressed and anxious. I'm struggling and need T. I've been calling her a lot because i've been in such internal upheaval. she didn't return my last two calls and the last one was long and teary. I didn't get the job i wanted so bad after two interviews and my financial situation is getting hopeless. I have a professional degree and am working a menial job right now that i can't handle because of my physical illness. Been married forever to a man who doesn't love me. He told me this years ago but i went into denial. Denial is gone now and i see everything crystal clear. It all has come to a head this weekend. my T is terminating with me at the end of the year and i'm so afraid of having no one at all, no support. A year ago i had so much support and was thriving. It's all dwindling away and life isn't what i thought it was. I am not who i thought i was. I need to feel secure and it's all uncertain now. everything. I am afraid of realizing that i am not important to anyone, not even T. I have needs and am used to settling for what i can get. I have no control of my life anymore, maybe i never did. please someone just be here with me, sit with me. I need hugs please