Today was the first SI in about 7 months. I couldn't help it. Nothing major, just enough to get a release from the pain inside.
The anxiety, the frustration, the....Bipolar. It just makes everything so bad and the SI helps a little, even if just for a short amount of time.

Sometimes, I hate to admit it, I do it for attention. I didn't this time, but I have in the past. You know, the need for someone, anyone to see you are hurting, but you can't tell them what you have done.

I don't want ANYONE to notice this time. I am trying to cover it up. It isn't working.

Dang it, I hate this!